As i say is time for me to stop spendin so i force myself to stay at hme today...as i have finished al my 'work' yest so im free hehe...den i start by 'packing' my clothes cart...its sooo movable tt i nd to use my leg n hand at same time lyk fightin lyk tt...i finally squeeze some into e 2 big bags in my bro room...den jus pack n pack la thou stil alott bt den at least is neater...n realise tt i stil gt some long long time ago de clothes went missin...

Nx...to my shoe cardboard...is a slide door n i slide too hard tt it bounce bac omg...den i organise al my shoes properly lor n lots of boots din wear sia...my own shoe oso alot la haha...stil gt 1 pair haven wear bt abt to go bac to its hme le...noe wat i mean ba...den my table i put it nicely (stil messsy) bt gt place to do my work le...

listen to songs after tt n den bath time...noe wat i HEARD??? my 'huh po' (my grandma's sis) passed away...omg is lyk 晴天劈厉(wrong writin???)...i noe tt her health is nt gd bt i din hope to get tis news so fast!!!

rem tt we c each other nt v often...always is cos of cny n other impt events...den wen each time i saw her she becum worst n worst...first is she gt mild 老人痴呆...she stil can rem us bt she keep forgettin tt she did mention e things she said b4...she keep askin us e same qns...she ll keep lots of things (foods oso) in her room...some mayb expired bt she stil brin out to share wif us (she dun wan to hav it herself)...others may stop her...bt we ll stil accept...if reali expired & spoilt we ll throw away wen we leave e hse...

another time went over...she becum worst she keep scoldin ppl...bt she din scold us la...she seem to LUV my dad alot...she keep tok to him...nx time seein her her 老人痴呆 worstest le...she cant rem anibodi...bt seem abit rem my dad...she ll jus sit on e sofa n stare at ppl...tt time she stop scoldin ppl oso...bt she ll 'slap' ppl...she ll beat ppl, pinch their nose n so on...quite scary...tey did sen her to dunno whr to 'train' her noe more frens, gt a maid for her n so on...bt in e end stil GONE...

lyk wat my grandma is last time gt a maid to look after em in e end..still GONE...we hav to 忍泪送走亲人and e maid jie jie...Y 人hav to go thru 生离死别 n 生老病死...i jus hate tt bt hav gt no choice...

dad say he cant go tonite so tml i hav to go lesson myself while he go to e wake...stil nt sure...SAD SADD SADDE SADDES SADDEST POST!!! tis is another time tt my 'close' relative leave me...i dun wan it to happen again...bt im jus a human beings...i cant 跟天斗...mayb i shld 看开...dun always wan to win or 争anithin...jus b a normal human beings...mayb life ll den b happy n unstressful ba...

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